I’m back to the blogging! As far as I can tell, there’s nothing forbidding me from just doing things as long as it’s not working. I figure that I’m not a professional blogger (is there such a thing?) and rather it’s just a personal blog, so it’s probably fine. If someone launches a full scale investigation and gets sassy about it, I’ll deal with the problem at that point.
It’s been a week since my last real post, and I’ve mostly just stuck with Dreamstate II and a bit of the horror book. I’d taken a few days off to roll about on the floor and wonder why I’d been cursed with a slow visa arrival date, but got most of that out of my system over the weekend. I’ve been back at work since.
Anyways, as I was writing today, happily filling in a few spots that I’d left open, (sometimes I leave gaps when I don’t feel like getting stuck for a week on two pages and write ahead); I did a thing. I zoned out for a minute, and wrote paragraph in the middle of a very exciting section of the book that didn’t really line up with what was going on around it. The problem was not that I then had to delete the paragraph, but that I realized it was way better than the other stuff that I’d written before. Now, don’t get me wrong, I do like the rest of the content—it’s perfectly fine. But what I’d written just threw a whole new layer of awesome on top of it. It was creepy, it was dark, and it connected about eight other things that I’ve been trying to work into the book. It did all of this in about 300 words, and kind of broke my focus for a good chunk of the afternoon.
I had to sit and think for a good while whether I wanted to wipe everything that I’d been working on for the past few weeks and re-write it in the much better style, or just mark it up and deal with it during edits. I think I might do the later, more for my sanity than anything else—I want to see the end of this book, even if it’s just ceremonial.
I found it a little bit alarming when I ‘accidentally’ pulled the paragraph out of thin air, because it shined a bit of light on what I’d been writing as only being alright. I hadn’t felt like it was only alright—I’d thought it was pretty good—but not next to the new content. I guess I’d been struggling with it for some time, and haven’t really been looking forward to writing it nearly as much as I’d been at the start of the book. Maybe I had let my quality slide a little bit, or maybe I was just uninspired. Whichever way, the new stuff is really, really good and I’m looking forward to playing with it—even if it means that I’ve just built up an extra billion hours of serious editing down the road. It’ll be worth it to release something that I’m really proud of.